My Host

Our prayer becomes a prayer of the heart when we have localized in the center of our inner being the empty space in which our God-filled mind can descend and vanish, and where the distinctions between thinking and feeling, knowing and experience, ideas and emotions are transcended, and where God can become our host. “The Kingdom of God is within you” (Luke 17:21), Jesus said. The prayer of the heart takes these words seriously. – Henri Nouwen

One phrase really struck me from this quote: “God can become our host.” In my heart, God the host. I usually think that in the opposite way – that I am hosting God.

Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me. Revelation 3:20

I have thought that if I condescend to open the door and let him in, I can be his gracious host. When all the grace comes from him. And if I have given my heart to him, he is my host. Given as in:

Give: to make a present of; to put into the possession of another for his or her use[i]

Wow, that takes all control away, but also all decision-making and stress. I really stress about hosting anything. I fret about things like, what am I going to serve? How do I cook it? How should I decorate the table? When should the guests arrive? ​ So God being the host really resonated with me. If God is the host, if our hearts are his now, it’s all up to him.

We become the guest in our own hearts. He lays out the banquet – or not. We sit at the table, or maybe, we serve.

 

I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. Galatians 2:20

 

[i] Merriam-Webster Dictionary

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